White Girl Problem

If you want to be a violinist you buy a violin. And you practice, you read theory, and you practice and you practice. You learn your instrument. You observe incredible violinists. If you want to be an incredible violinist you can be an incredible violinist.
                                                                        You are not a violin.
                                                                         I am not a violinist.
My spiney fingers
will not hold water
for fear of
bruising it,
much less art
for fear of
loving it,
bowed, will break
before the resin
could touch the strings,
fear of
reverberations
sensation
approximity
and remedy,
sometimes the worst of me
claws at the best of me